college apps

I've noticed that these blogs are kind of like college app essays. I can write whatever i want becasue the people i know (my friends basically) will never read it. I can say whatever i want without someone i know saying that what i'm writing isn't true or that it's not really me. to tell you the truth, i dont really think anyone of my friends really knows me. I guess since recently a few have started to see more of who i really am but i dont really think they know who i really am completely. i guess this is a bit reassuring.

I've just realized a bit of irony in these posts. You, someone i will probably never meet, will probably know me better than my friends who i see almost everyday. isn't that ironic?

well, anyway. I can't really think of anything to say right now... I've always had this problem where i don't really know what is on my mind so i can't really write about it. I guess it might be from all those years where i kept everything to myself and was very introverted. I still am a bit but not nearly as much as i used to be. I used to be that loser kid who didn't have any friends and now i feel like i have a lot of friends who actually like to hang out with me and whom i feel like are actual real friends. I used to hang out with people that i've recently realized, treat me a bit like shit (excuse my language, please). Now, i have friends that i really feel comfortable being myself around. I don't really worry, or even care, what the "popular kids" think about me anymore and i can be just myself.

Maybe this will help my mediocre writing skills too, just maybe...